Hello Bloggers and Bloggetts

I am less than pleased with most everything right now

  • Blog post didnt post
  • LBF= Just Alex
  • Too much homework
  • Tuesdays
  • Preform tonight
  • Miss home     

Word Press had some sort of malfunction and my big long post for you guys just didn’t happen. I poured out my soul and now it is one with the cyber-verse. Oh well I can always blog again, as I am now.

Speaking of symbolic loss, my LBF is no longer my lovely boyfriend. He wishes to retain the title of friend and that’s it. I can respect why he did it, but it still hurts and makes me feel inadequate. He told me that he no longer loves me. I guess this is an extremely valid reason to no longer be a couple and I applaud his bravery and honesty. It still doesn’t make me feel good, but it had to be done. I have never been on this side of a break-up and I have found that is sucks just as much to be broken up with as it does to be the person who does the breaking up. We are trying to remain friends and I think we are doing ok considering. It has been along time since we have just been friends and even then we were closer physically and emotionally than most friends. We would cuddle on the couch, share food and even fall asleep on the couch. I just don’t know how we are going to get back, but I guess it will take lots of work and a new definition of our friendship. 

I have more homework and different homework than I have ever had before. I blame it on my heavy course load.

Tuesdays suck. I have classes from 10:30 till 2:40 and then again from 5-9. Tuesdays suck, I’m busy and tired all day. The only thing that makes it any worse is that my last class is a Geology lab. I am at a building all the way across campus from my dorm looking at rocks till 9 at night. This doesn’t make me happy in the least!!!!!!! Plus its always super cold when I walk home and I hate the cold. Why in the powers that be would I want to have to were a heavy coat in OCTOBER!!!!

I am in a voice class and I have a song that I am preforming tonight at my studio class. This is a very different style of song than anything I have ever sang before. It is very operaish and very high. I am very nervous, but Ill let you know how that goes.

Lastly on my list is I miss home. I hate being here in the cold without my cats and my dog as well as Alex and Landon. I miss my boys and cant wait to get home. I really hate being alone all the time. The lovely Camilla is here, but her scheduled is just so different than mine and we live on opposite ends of campus. I really just don’t like it. I have gotten used to the crazy house with a million things going on and at least one screaming match, here it is just quiet and contained until people are drunk. That always seems to occur when I am trying to sleep or study. I have gotten almost no sleep for the last month plus because of either not the right noise or too much noise.

I just wanted to take a moment to thank you all that follow me. I know that I am a bit long winded and not very interesting but it helps to sort out how I’m feeling with you all. I want to send you all cookies and a Christmas card when the time comes. Drop me your address and Ill make it happen, comment requests
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Peace, Love and Serenity